2'nd round evaluation
By Iliana Yanakova
Introduction:
Dear ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the second evaluation meeting for our experiment. It’s with great pleasure that I see you all here today. I know you’ve gone through some tough times, Patricia, but I also understand from the conversations that we’ve had through the week that you feel a lot better now and is interested in carrying on with the experiment. I’m also very happy to announce that the second nominee has also been successfully executed by the person selected by our passive members. Friday evening, Jack Smith took the life of 41 year old Leann Joy. If you haven’t had the chance to read Jack’s excellent account of the events, please do so before we continue the discussion.
Read Jack's account here
I would like to stick with the form adopted at our first evaluation meeting, so I will start by sharing a few of my own psychological and medical insights regarding the death of Leann Joy, then I will interview Jack, and then we can have a round-table debate about what has happened.
Leann Joy:
As you have all read in Jack’s account, Leann Joy could not be taken to his location by the same rouse which we used on Nicole, as she didn’t want to become a model. We therefore had to drug and abduct her, which fortunately worked quite well. As you are probably aware by now, Frank is a helper of mine, and he is doing some excellent work, so we’ll probably see more of him in the future. Anyway, Leann Joy was abducted, so she knew right from the beginning that something was wrong.
We see how she initially tries to befriend her abductor and tries to make him explain why she has been abducted. While she is fleshing up in the bathroom, se obviously decides to change her tactics, perhaps fearing what she will learn from him. Instead she tries to seduce him, and suggests to Jack that he will let her go if she gives him what he wants, which she assumes is sex. It must appear to her that Jack accepts this proposition by his nod.
When the deed is done, she expects to be allowed to leaver, but being true to his intentions of drowning a lady, Jack refuses her request. He instead gently eases her into the idea that she’ll suffer quite a different face – kudos on the style, Jack, it is a pleasure to see that you put some effort into this, rather then just getting at it. When it dawns on her that she is going to get drowned, Leann starts on an emotional rollercoaster ride that takes her through all the stages of Kubler-Roos death cycle (see last section of this document); shock, denial, anger, bargaining and grief. I don’t know if she ever experienced acceptance, though Jack gave her ample time to consider her fate – again, my compliments on your style, Jack.
The fate that Leann Joy suffers is truly horrifying. She knows what is coming to her, yet she is totally unable to do anything about it. She is entirely helpless, and has no choice but to suffer the terrors that Jack has bestowed upon her; she must suffer the horrific death of drowning. Jack is even so kind as to describe to her how he imagines her death will be, so she knows in advance what is coming to her. I think his description is quite accurate, so I will not add anything further to that.
Interview with Jack:
Iliana> So, Jack, it seems that you had quite an experience there. Now that you’ve had a few days to think about it, how do you feel?
Jack> It’s a strange feeling, Iliana. I do feel intensely sorry for Leann, but somehow I don’t regret anything. She made a lifetime fantasy of mine come true, and I have never felt so fulfilled as I do after our ‘session’.
Iliana> Can you describe that feeling a little more?
Jack> Yea, of course. For many years I’ve fantasised about watching a woman drown, I mean watch it up close an personal, so I could really see how she felt. Leann gave me that experience, and it was fantastic. It was a million times better than sex and it has fulfilled this deep urge that I have carried inside for so many years.
Iliana> And Leann’s suffering doesn’t factor into this equation?
Jack> Yes it does. That was the whole point; her suffering. It’s not that I had anything against her, or even wanted her to suffer, but you know, drowning is both scary and painful. It just couldn’t be any other way.
Iliana> But no remorse?
Jack> As I said, I do feel intensely sorry for her, but whenever I think about her, the dominant feeling is one of enormous gratitude. I mean she suffered so much to make my fantasy come true. I know she didn’t commit to that voluntarily, but she was there and it happened and I will always be immensely grateful for the experience that she gave me.
Iliana> When you talk about her I hear a lot of love in your voice.
Jack> I guess I do love her. She gave me a unique experience and I will always treasure it. I was there when she suffered the most painful minutes of her life. I was there when it all ended for her. I experienced a part of her that no one else ever will. I will remember that always. In a way she has become a part of me.
Iliana> Very interesting, very interesting indeed. Are there anything else you want to say, before we open up the discussion to include the whole group?
Jack> I just want to thank you and Frank for this experience. Without all your preparation and effort it would never have happened. I would never have had the balls to go through with this on my own.
Iliana> You’re most welcome, Jack. OK, let’s hear what the rest of the group has to say. Does anyone have a question or comment for Jack?
Open discussion:
George> For a moment there I thought you were in love with her, but I guess you were just fooling me the same as you were her! Damn, what a hot evening you had with that babe! Way to go, Jack!
Jack> Thanks, George, it was quite a nice evening, yes.
Patricia> You guys are too much. Think about how the poor woman suffered. What did she ever do to deserve that?
George> Yea, look who’s talking, the chick that snuffed an 18 year old! At least Leann got to be 41, unlike Nicole that you killed!
Patricia> And I’m not proud of that, believe me, but two wrongs don’t make a right!
Sarah> He’s right, Patricia, you really don’t have any right to pass judgement on Jack. Besides, what he did was truly fascinating. I wish I could have been there. It must be so intense to watch a woman die like that.
Patricia> You sick little punk. Why don’t you drop the black makeup and grow the fuck up?
George> Can it, Patricia. I’ve just about had it with your hypocritical attitude. We all get the idea that you regret killing Nicole, but do you have to give us all a hard time about it?
Patricia> I just want you to realise what you’re doing, that’s all. At least you should be aware of the consequences. I know Jack is all smiles and laughs right now, but sooner or later he will regret what he has done. They say that if you kill another human being, you kill a part of yourself. I really believe that is true.
Sarah> But still, you have to admit that Leann’s death was quite interesting.
Patricia> I don’t have to admit anything! I wished you’d all declined the opportunity to kill Leann, so this whole absurd experiment would be over.
George> Hell, it’s not over until I get to fuck one of them sexy bitches.
Patricia> Pig! How can you talk about women like that with three ladies in the room?
George> Arh, don’t be such a fucking prude.
Patricia> No, seriously, I think you’re disgusting, George. I think you should really learn some manners. How you ever manage to pick up a girl is beyond me.
George> Hey, I know what they like to hear. The only reason I talk like that to you is because I have no intension of ever bagging you. Otherwise I would be charming as fucking shit. Trust me, you would never be able to resist me.
Patricia> Try me!
George> Yea, right. Like I want to fuck a killjoy like you. I bet you’d be praying to the holy virgin mother through the whole thing, and if you enjoyed it even just a little bit, I bet you would feel bad about it afterwards.
Patricia> Forget it then. This is one sexy bitch you’ll never fuck.
George> Don’t fucking flatter yourself. Sure, you got a nice rack, but that’s pretty much it.
Sarah> You two, will you give it a rest? I would like to hear what Jack felt when he saw Leann die. Jack?
Jack> It was really amazing. I felt a strong tingling sensation in my stomach. You know, when you were younger and stole an apple in the neighbour’s yard, half the fun was knowing that you were doing something wrong. I mean, that’s what made it much more fun the eating one of your own apples, right? Well, multiply that by a thousand times, and that’s what it felt like in my stomach. And since I was already sexually excited, that just added to my pleasure. That sucking sensation in my stomach just went straight to my balls.
Sarah> Fascinating.
Jack> Yea. I had no idea it would be like that. I mean, I have fantasises about it a lot, but even in my fantasies it was never so intensely sexual.
Sarah> Wow. I guess there must be something erotic about having that kind of power over another human being. Like erotic dominance, you know, but to the fucking max.
Patricia> Are you getting all turned on, Sarah? Just goes to prove what a dirty little slut you are!
Sarah> There you go again, bitch! You said yourself that it felt ‘almost sexual’ when you decided to kill Nicole.
Patricia> But that was in the heat of the moment. I would never think like that now!
George> Sure you wouldn’t.
Iliana> OK, I think we stop our discussion here. I propose that Sarah and Jack can continue in private after our meeting, if they have more to discuss.
Sarah> That’s fine by me. I’ll talk to you afterwards, Jack.
Jack> OK.
Note to self:
Jack’s murder of Leann was a total success. I sense no remorse in him at all. I think he has the potential to become a serial killer. Sarah’s interest in Leann’s death was also encouraging. It will be interesting to see what happens if she gets an opportunity to kill.
Patricia still harbours a lot of negative emotions regarding her murder of Nicole. I’m not sure whether she will recover, but at least she has put a bit of distance between herself and her actions. If George continues to push her, he might provoke the violent temper that we saw when she killed Nicole, and that might actually trigger her to commit another murder.
George is still primarily interested in sex, but I think Jack’s story stirred something in him. I noticed that he read the part about Leann’s final death throes at least three times over. He obviously thinks that what Jack did was cool. If he is offered the opportunity to kill, I have no doubt that he will seize it – and he will try to show Jack off.
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